As much as I love my husband, and love having him home, I can't help but feel relief as he leaves for another shift. He's gone 15 days at a time, every month... It was no picnic when this particular "shift" started about a year ago (as prior to this, he worked locally and was home every night), but now I'm used to it... So used to it, that I begin to crave the independence and self-reliance that is forced upon me in his absence...
There is no one to ask "What do you want for dinner?"... If I want a bowl of cereal, or cheese and crackers, there isn't anyone there to say, "But what's REALLY for dinner?"...
There is no one to have to ask what his plans are, or argue about what to watch on TV... No one to yell at to pick up after himself or rinse out the sink after he's used it... No one to tell me to move over in the bed after I've gotten comfortable and dozed off...
This shift is particularly bitter-sweet... I have seen my husband more in the last month and a half, that I am SOOOO ready for him to go back to work... We had our long vacation, where I had his presence from July 21st to August 24th... Then he came back home after a short shift, on September 1... Thankfully, he left this morning to go back to Bethel... But I am used to him being home, so I'll miss him more this month than usual...
Noni will have to re-adjust as well... She's so used to having people at home... With family coming to visit, and Aaron being home as often as he has been... She didn't want me to leave the house without her this morning... Poor little girl... It always takes her longer to adjust to Aaron being gone than me...
I think we both enjoy the "breaks" we get from each other, every month... He gets to go be a "bachelor" and be gross, living with other men in the pilot house, not having anyone nagging at him to do something (and I'm a champion nagging wife, if I do say so myself)... He actually enjoys himself for about the first week or so... Then he starts to miss home... Oddly, I've been on that same schedule of reveling in my solitude, and then missing him the last 5 days or so...
Absence really does make the heart grow fonder :)
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Reminds me of years worth of TDY's. Hang in there - you both are strong!
I often wonder why I miss Taylor so much when we're apart, because we easily drive each other nuts if we're around each other for more than a few days. I do know that I appreciate him more when he's gone, knowing all the things he does for me when we're together. It truly is bittersweet. Only 3 days till I get 5 days with my man...
I think you're right. Dh and I don't travel much but when we're apart we definitely appreciate our time together more :). And I know he's ready for me to go back to work every Monday, hehe.
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