Time for change...

I am tired of being constantly on edge about certain areas of my life...

I am tired of worrying about everything that I do, for fear that it will be wrong...

I am tired of losing sleep over this particular issue...

I am tired of hating my life in general despite the many things in my life that make me happy...

This particular area used to make me happy... I used to feel fulfilled and I had a sense of accomplishment...

My self confidence has taken a real nose dive because of this issue... I second guess everything and assume that I'm wrong all of the time. The uncertainty is leaching into other areas of my life as well. I wonder if I ever was talented in this area. I wonder if I really DO have a problem that means I suck...

I feel myself going down a dark hole, with no end in sight...

So, I'm taking my shovel and I'm digging myself out. I refuse to feel this way and I am doing something proactive about it. Something positive. It has begun!